I’m happy and healthy. It’s almost 2016 and I really can’t wait!
Love doesn’t cause pain started when I was so incredibly in pain and I’m happy to say so much has changed. I’m on medication (depression) – Depression! There I said it. I suffer from anxiety.
But I’m in a good place now. I’m done with school and that diploma should be arriving soon. I’m making efforts to talk to people instead of avoiding everyone. I have lovely friends. One in particular that I would like to see more often. We have the same birthday and we used to work together.
His face makes me smile. Is that weird? We’ll never be anything more than friends but to be honest, that’s fine. Soulmates comes to mind but there are different kinds.
I mean, I know how to say ‘I love you’, I’m just not sure I know what it means anymore. My heart is being held together by cement, like a horribly designed well. Which is why I suppose I’m engaged to someone I haven’t seen or talked to. Makes you cringe, right? My cousin has been asking if I got his number yet and his education. My parents didn’t tell me anything and I didn’t bother asking. Does my make me a bad person? I just don’t seem to care because they want a person of specific religious caste and I don’t.
Maybe it’s because there’s always time for something to happen. I trust God. I’ll end where I’m meant to be. I’m not crying over guys. I’m not angry. I simply am – happy and all smiles for once because life is beautiful.
lovedoesntcausepain 